a step in the right direction

so, howd I do?

Well all in all I think I have done well.

I got home, put on my shoes and did a little walk/run to blockbuster to return my rentals.
When I got home I put on some music and started some resistance training, intending to do at least three circuits of the four exercises, dumbell rows, romanian lifts, pushups, abs, at least 10 reps, with 2 minutes of jumping around to get my heart rate up... jumping jacks, dancing, whatever. I discovered my stair climbing had made me a bit sore in a good way - like I needed to stretch my muscles and stuff. So in the middle of my first circuit, all the power goes off. My immediate worry was that I didn't pay my bill and so I decided I better rectify that asap - which means getting dressed and going to work to use the internet/phone. My phone has no battery and no way to charge it with the power off. So I walk outside, and there were two smokers hanging out on the balcony beneath mine so I asked them if their power was out as well, to which they replied yes...

so then slightly bummed my workout was interrupted, I decided to go to the store and get the shopping done instead, thinking that I did my 30 mins of activity, and plus the stair climbing my body had been challenged a little. IT'S OK!. Shopping took longer than expected as always... and cost more than expected, as always.... so $50 later I had all sorts of fruits, veggies, and some tillapia fillets, lemon juice, cat litter, and some drain clearer... keep your fingers cross it works so I can do the dishes and not breed flies in my sink.

Arriving home in the dark I stuck things in the fridge, pulled out leftover asian food for dinner, lit candles, and ate outside. When the power came on I just left the lights out, because it was nice. Well actually I didn't know when the power went on because I didn't have anything "on" to let me know, but I saw lights accross the street, momentarily felt a little silly, and then just decided to pretend it was still out. I thought, I'm glad my guitar doesn't run on electricity, and I pulled it out and played a tune or two. I love to sing. I love to hear and make music. I do. It's one thing I know... If only I could have more, and have more words, I have music in my head but lack the words that express things right... I suppose that's where the practice comes in. Sigh.

Anyway, the only place I went wrong was in having a peanut butter jelly sandwich AFTER dinner, which I didn't need, but I thought since I'm starting the detox today might as well use up the last bagel.

I did a night time routine... this is good! washed face, brushed teeth... that is a good healthy habit. good girl! Had a bit of trouble getting to sleep and slight fitful sleep when I did, kept waking up to the sound of my grinding teeth... hate that... woke up at 5:30... the light was just starting to fade in, snoozed about twenty times and all in all ended up getting out of bed around 7:15/7:20am. Ok... not failure - IMPROVEMENT!!! Improvement by a whole 30 minutes. Determined to follow through I put food together for the day, jumped in and out of the shower, put some lotion on my face... got dressed real quick and put on my running shoes to WALK TO WORK! Yeay! I have begun the day well. A walk to work, several prayers and affirmations and breathing. and then a half liter of water, one cup of coffee, a 80 calorie piece of high fiber, sprouted grain/oat/soy bread which surprising tastes good! (I think it's Exekial bread). five strawberries, a clump of grapes and lemon water that I'm still working on for breakfast. So we're doing well. We're detoxing. We are cleaning out mind body soul.... this is good.

So to adjust for better results tomorrow... I will continue to move back my GETTING UP time by 20 or thirty minutes, because that was what I was able to do this morning. Makes more sense then jumping the time back 3 hours all at once. Gentle. ok so that would mean tomorrow is 6:50 or 7am. Unless I decide to do 5:30am yoga. which would be nice. We'll see.

and I will continue to journal like this. Hilighting or bolding positive "me" sort of things. So I can see how well I'm doing, and what I like, and solidify who this crazy girl is.

and now I move on to calm peaceful productive work with a happy attitude of gratitude, believing that my life today in this moment is a work of art that will evolve and unfold throughout the day, and I can try and make it beautiful. No. I can make it beautiful. It is beautiful.

and a quick shout out to my best friend mister man who is always on my mind. Mon amour durera toujours.